Synopsis: “Your first love isn’t the first person you give your heart to – its the first one who breaks it.” A beautifully written and emotionally charged coming of age story, where young love, dark secrets, and tragedy collide. School is almost out for Audrey, but the panic attacks are just beginning. Because Audrey told a lie and now her classmate Ana is dead. Just as her world begins to spin out of control, Audrey meets the enigmatic Rad – the boy who could turn it all around. But will their ill-timed romance drive her closer to the edge?
I’m not even sure where to begin with this review. As a long time fan of Lang Leavs poetry, I had high hopes for this book. Mainly because her poetry is so beautifully written, and the synopsis of this book specifically says that it is a “beautifully written coming of age story.” While there are parts of this book where her poetic side shines, the rest of it was boring and hard to follow.
We first meet Audrey when she tells “the lie” which we don’t fully find out until her friend Ana is dead. After all of this occurs, Audrey starts having anxiety and panic attacks. While I am glad this book portrays these issues throughout the story, I also feel like the way the author wrote about it made it seem unrealistic. As someone who suffers from these things, I just felt like it was a bit over dramatic? Maybe I’m wrong, but it felt a bit pushed for me if that makes sense.
Anyways, the story continues…which is basically just a bunch of dialogue that ends up being a bit difficult to follow. The author didn’t do a very good job of letting us know who was speaking, and when they were speaking. There was also a lot of “we laughed” going on throughout the book which I honestly hated. I just felt like this book was rushed, the storyline was okay, and the characters were not fully developed.
Unfortunately, I think I will be sticking to Leavs poetry from now on. I ended up giving this book 3.5/5 stars. 😕